Finding presence in the pain

This moment, right now, is what we have. Being present hasn’t always come easy for me, but with much practice, I have found it to be my safe place and a true blessing. I’m not perfect at it, but I am getting better and better.
Presence, in this moment… helps release fear, pain and heartache. 
In this moment, 5:22 am, I am concerned for my son Crew and the heartbreak he is feeling with the loss of his best friend, Algene Cole lll. He has had a lot of loss over the past 5 weeks and my momma heart feels his pain. In this moment, I am honoring the feelings, as a mom, that are moving through me as I witness my son, and his friends in such deep pain and sadness..
Over the course of the next 4 hours, I will likely be in protective mom mode. Making sure my baby is ok. Holding his hand and talking with him through his challenging moments as well. I will also be honoring the feelings that come up within me as well. The feeling that there is nothing I can do, as a mom, but be a loving witness to my sons pain. That part sucks. It simply sucks.
As a medium, I know that Algene is A-ok. No doubt whatsoever. He hasn’t stopped by for a visit yet, but I know he will. It’s of course, those left behind. His family that relied on him so much, his friends that love him so dearly, his co-workers and colleagues. It’s their heartbreak that I feel.
And yet, I know that it is not mine to feel. Not mine to take on, but in this moment.. that is where I am.
HOWEVER… In four hours, I will be in that present moment.
I will be in a personal retreat with a beautiful soul that traveled quite a distance to be with me. This woman inspires me tremendously. These retreats are a time where the focus is directly on the needs of the client, in all ways and on all levels. It is a gift to me that today, in a few hours, I will be in a new present moment and that I can choose to direct my energy there. I can be present for my client, to her needs, and show up in the way that is for the highest good of us both. I believe that today, I NEED to be of service. That is what is best for me. Spirit knows!!! I am grateful that Spirit has taught me presence… in the moment… so that I can be of service!
It has been some of the hardest lessons to learn for me. Presence. Yet, as I walk this journey, I see the power and the value more and more. When I was writing my book, The Love Never Ends, spirit said to me: “You cannot focus on their absence, and feel their presence.” It doesn’t always feel like we have a choice… and yet, we do. When we focus on their presence, we can truly feel their presence yet when we focus on their absence, we feel more absence.
What I know for sure is that the only way to walk this journey of life is in present moment. I have known this truth, but it seems to be one that is needing to be truly paid attention to… Always. I also know that it is important to remember to:

• Enjoy each and every moment.
• Breathe life in.
• Love those you are with.
• Create great memories.
• Have fun.
• You only truly have THIS moment.
• Shine you light.
• Let love in.
• Life is a journey, not a destination.

I am grateful to know that THE LOVE NEVER ENDS… I KNOW this through and through. It brings me peace, hope and keeps me connected to this moment. Algene will live on in our hearts and memories. His love will be felt by his friends and family in ways that don’t yet know or understand.
So, for right now, in this moment, I am going to spend some time with my husband, who is also feeling the sadness and loss. As you know, it comes in waves… and we are all going to sail through this… together.
– Sunny Dawn Johnston