I was teaching a workshop the other day, and one of the students mentioned something about feeling guilty for the abundance she had …
We were doing a simple exercise … I am open to receive … and I watched as most of the people in class opened their arms maybe 1/4 of the width that they could.
This told me something …
Either they really don’t feel open
they are comfortable with where they are (not)
they feel guilty for asking or wanting more than they have.
I know this feeling, intimately. It’s been one I have fought against, struggled with and allowed for the majority of my life. How about you?
I have watched myself sabotage my abundance with my words, thoughts and actions for years and years and years. Every time I had a little extra money, the fridge would go out, the engine would need to be replaced, the vacuum would die. It didn’t matter what it was physically … I knew it was me energetically … my deservability, my fear of receiving, my feeling of not being enough. Can you relate? I have watched around me as my friends, clients and students have done the same thing.
I find it interesting that many of them, myself included, would pray or intend or ask in some way for love, abundance maybe even a new TV or relationship (for example), in their morning meditations or prayers … and yet would not allow it to come through … as if the universe, and an abundant universe at that, would work in such a way that … if we receive a blessing …
it takes away from the blessings of others.
Is that possible?
That’s where the conversation went in the workshop … and I shared my own belief … very similar to this quote:
“You cannot get sick enough to help sick people get better. You cannot get poor enough to help poor people thrive. It is only in your thriving that you have anything to offer anyone. If you’re wanting to be of an advantage to others, be as tapped in, turned in, turned on as you can possibly be.” — Abraham
I knew that I had some subconscious belief that if I withheld my abundance, it might help someone else. I could feel it in my body, but I didn’t know how to release it …
How do I heal it?
What do I need to work on?
Well, gratefully, I figured it out … and have received abundance in my life in amazing ways. I will share “how” I did that in a future blog …
Stay tuned … and please share with me below, your comments … How do you hold yourself back? Do you feel guilty when you receive “more” than others have?
Until next time – Sunny Dawn Johnston
PS: Abundance doesn’t just mean money, by the way 🙂